20 confessions + a GMH story

Well, I got this from Ocha , and since I couldn't let this opportunity to admit things about myself to my trusted watchers pass, I did this. I wonder who'd bother reading this, anyway. .___.


Alright, so...

1st thing about me is that: I overthink things. I get worried easily, and everytime I do so, I get heartbeats. Sometimes, it's painful to sleep at night because of this.
2. I love it when I make people laugh and be happy.
3. But sometimes, I try too hard, and it sets them off, so I try not to try too hard, but then I still fail at doing so. Because of this, I get self-disappointed a lot.
4. Yeah, I cry easily, but in public I try to hold it in. I'm moody a lot this holiday.
5. I get angry and annoyed when people mistreat me in a mean way, but I hold it in.
6. I love it when people come to me for console and to rant about their feelings.
7. But I'm a bad advisor and I could only listen, agree and give comfort and hugs.
8. I'm somehow paranoid and believe in jinxes.
9. Following number 8, that's why I tend to go 'masyaallah' in my mind or whisper it when someone gives me compliments and I compliment other people.
10. Following number 9, when someone says to me 'you're so nice' and 'you'll never do anything mean ;) ' I get 'jinxy' and sometimes, I actually think of violent things. Of course, I get afraid of myself, so I seek help and assurance.
11. Following number 10, I wanna seek assurance from Allah SWT. The thing is, sometimes I don't have enough willpower, then I break down because of that.
12. I LIKE A BIT OF BROMANCE OKAY? >8U


*COUGH*ENGLAND AND AMERICA*cough*
13. I wish I could be more outgoing.
14. I wish, in the future, I could find someone who could tell me I'm beautiful, even when I'm not from the outside.
15. I wish to be more religious and active and less lazy.
16. I love it when people I know and love add me to conversations or invite me to group meetings and go someplace fun. I love being included :)
17. But a lot of times, I get paranoid, again, and I chicken out of parties because I fear to be lonely.
18. I hate when people use swear words to insult people, but I say swear words in my head
sometimes when I realised I did something wrong.
19. GMHs are better than FMLs.
20. There are more things I'd like to admit about myself but I won't because I'm lazy.


Well, now you know more about me. :]


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*EXTRA* A PERSONAL GMH STORY *EXTRA*


So, yesterday, I had a very plain and rather bad day. I deprived myself from chatting with my friends, and it was rather agonizing to do so. I felt very lonely. We went to Applebees for dinner later on, and when I was still a bit sad, this small family went past our table, the father holding his son's hand.


The son smiled at us, waved and said 'Bye-bye'.


3 year olds who treat strangers like friends GMH. [: