it's dead here.

so. where is everyone on blogger? shame really. i know i can't ask people to go on blogger because it really is their own decisions to check on their blog or look at their friends' blog to see what's been happening or something. i know that.

so, today is the first day of the end-of-term holiday of term 2. and i am bored to tears. literally. OTL

i suppose when i'm bored i think about things that make me sad. so i should stop being bored and start being brilliant. OAO; that is so easy for one to say.

and and i'm going to Abu Dhabi on the 9th. : D i hope it'll be an awesome trip. i really want something magical to happen this holiday. well, i hope magical things will happen anytime. maybe when i least expect it?

i don't know why but when I write on my blog i feel like i'm rumbling about nonsense and i can't get straight to my point.

DU DU DU COLDPLAY COLDPLAY COLDPLAY COLD--

yeah, and i still have to study for WSC and start writing the notes but how and where should i start?

DU RA RA RA~

Yes, Orihara Izaya will own your cell phones and stomp them into little pieces. It's true.

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this is probably the reason why i don't get so many comments on my posts.

I'd like to go to a water-park. Or go hiking in a forest. I just have to do something; something thrilling and fantastic and something memorable. I'd like to travel the world, the galaxies and sail the oceans and the seas. I just have to do something.

I feel down, but I know I shouldn't. Like the post two posts before, BS told me I shouldn't be so down. And I know I shouldn't. Who am I to feel sad, when I've got a bed, food and family? I always told myself I can do it--push on, sail forwards.

I may sound like my sister now, but it's just in my nature okay? I respect that people care about the happiness of other people, and mind you I will be happy soon enough. I'll push away all the negative thoughts and feelings and make my own life awesome. I'd change myself if I have to.

Just, once in a while, can I just allow myself to feel sad at the smallest things in life?

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The answer is 'no'. :) I'm proud to say that for myself.