Something happy for once.

I've been denying that I liked anyone recently, even though I knew deep down I still have that immature feeling for someone. :) More on this shortly.

Thursday today, I was supposed to be late for school, but when I got there at 7.08, the tutor said I wasn't late at all. Haha, it was weird.

But, I did believe that today was gonna be a good day.

I mean, I realised I'm still very close with a friend I thought I might lose (and hopefully I'd never will, amin), I could laugh until my sides ached and the week went by real fast.

And I see lots of fanarts about USUK, which is awesome.

But the main thing is. Well. Today, my 'simsalabim' opened a chat randomly with me on MSN. When he opened it, I was still denying that I had feelings for him. I remember then the previous night when we had a conversation, with him, Ocha, Jihan, Nadhira, etc. It was fun. We had so much laugh.

I never expected to see a chat window opened from him with just the two of us anytime soon though. I mean we did have nice, personal chats twice. The other two were awkward.

Anyhow, it started with him saying 'Hey!' and 'I'm bored. :P '

Then we talked and talked, had a few pauses here and there. Then it came to a long pause, and I just had to tell a joke I found on dA. I didn't expect his reaction to be big. He typed in:

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahhahahahahahha (goes for 2.3 lines-ish)

You can't believe how much I was going red and I was laughing back. When I asked him why, he said it was literally funny. Then he says, copied and pasted from our chat log directly:

'i jst cnt help it, u found a joke, wer no1 suceeded t make me laugh fr th last 3 months'

now, it might not seem much to you, but it's a lot to me. i'm sure he was exaggerating a bit but... .///. ... I still tried to deny I like him. But later on, when ocha and jihan added us to this group convo, he said he was depressed. I suggested him to eat chocolate. He said good idea. I suggested him to think of things that made him laugh. He said good idea, but it wouldn't work.

Then I said he should try faking a laugh, listen to how silly he sounds, then he'd laugh a real laugh because that's what I do. And he said:

'hahah, rofl. good idea.

ardi, i think i'll talk t u wen i need t chill, u make me laugh :P'

it was then that I realised I had to accept the fact that I still place some hope on him after all. :)