Sometimes I'm not sure how to react when people say, "It is a shame that so-and-so has changed."

Of course they have changed. That's what people do.

So how long has this been going on?

I will not hate myself for no reason.

I will not be so hard on myself.

I will learn to grow comfortable under my own skin.

I will learn to forgive myself so that every time the wrong words come out of my mouth, or if I have done something I told myself repeatedly was wrong, I will not earn myself self-loathe.

I need to shift my self-perception and stop focusing on the many flaws I have, because I probably have just as many positive qualities.

Frankly, I am growing tired of depreciating myself like this and waiting for some changes to happen. I can't move forwards if I continue berating myself for everything I say and do, because then I'll only be afraid to do anything at all. That makes me a failure in life by default.
I should stop that because I will eventually learn to become a better person, and the best thing I could do right now is to think less about who exactly I am and just be.

Might as well start liking myself as I am if I'm gonna live as Anty for the rest of my life, hahaha.

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I have faith in the fact that this is just a terrible phase I'm undergoing, though.

A very long.

And depressing.

Phase.

Words of Motivation

So whenever I draw and the proportions turn ghastly, and my lines are horrendously sketchy and my colours resemble puke,

And when I have a writer's block and cannot produce a satisfying piece of prose, and find that stringing words together to make a beautiful sentence or two is an arduous task,

And when I want to be social and make SUPER INTERESTING conversations with people I want to break the ice with

I shall look at this picture.

Because preach it, Mr. Cow Suit Man.

Preach it.

I'm not doing things right lately and I'm not sure how to get back on track.

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[Edit] 19/02

Also, how do you cure writer's block?

My writing skills have grown so painfully rusty.

I can barely come up with a decent prose.

):

No, you're not done yet.

I hate it when someone gets so overcome with problems that they have fought through for so long, but then everything becomes too much for them and they feel broken and are about to give up (or maybe they have, in fact, already given up), and you want to comfort them but you feel like nothing you say will make things right.

You cannot comfort them, because you're at loss for words, no matter how strongly you feel for this person. What are you supposed to say? 'Hey, everything's going to be fine'? How many times have they heard that one, and nothing is turning up for them, and so why should they ever believe in that phrase again?

What about: 'Stay strong and hang on'? I reckon they've been doing that for as long as they could now.

Everyone says they are there for that person but it appears that that person does not feel it. I wish we could fully show how supportive we are of that person, but darn long-distance and virtual connection for not allowing us to give them a hug or something when they need it most.

I wonder how some people could be so amazing that they could talk a person out of harming themselves, and maybe even convince them not to commit suicide, despite how terrible their lives seem to be.

Of course, this person I wish I could comfort probably doesn't go to that extent, but if I could only show her how much we all care for her...

But I feel like I would merely bug her by telling her things she has heard countless of times before, because those are the only words I could think of.