OH DAD I WANT TO

• study animation and the arts and maybe work with some grand film company (Pixar? Dreamworks? Disney? WarnerBros?), but this is very unlikely because of combined circumstances and my own ineptitude
• write an article for NatGeo one day; and in it I would have gone to a country I would never have imagined going to before, and maybe I would have looked at the social situation within that country, or its environmental concerns, or have done some scientific research relating to the climate or some extinct specimen etc etc
• Work for National Geographic. (amin)
• study environmental sciences and biology (but what kind?) as I have so frequently pressed on doing so but there are other majors too!! like the social sciences + anthropology, combined with philosophy
• study physics and its philosophies as well because i do enjoy learning all about the different theories, only i'm not very good at it so i guess that's out of the question???
• teach people in doing something i love
• be a student all my life and spend my whole lifetime taking all the college courses i want to, just for the sake of learning (i guess this is pretty unrealistic if we are to be concerned with finances & MATTERS OF CONSEQUENCES but let me be as wistful as id like)
• not become a petroleum engineer.
• do something for the rest of my life that i will enjoy, insyaAllah

but the last point depends on how well and quick i decide what i want to be, too

please God, let me discover something soon, and guide me there where i'll be happiest (amiiin).

oh man dad came in today and told me to look at all the universities i'd like to apply to in the UK if I haven't already done so, asap. because i'll be keteteran if i leave this decision to later years (and because we might be going to england someday soon to look at the colleges, insyaAllah) - but i don't even know what i want to be ahahoo

but im definitely gonna be

happy, amin & insyaaAllah YuY

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this took a lot of time off my mocks revision to write, ugly laughter