So how long has this been going on?

I will not hate myself for no reason.

I will not be so hard on myself.

I will learn to grow comfortable under my own skin.

I will learn to forgive myself so that every time the wrong words come out of my mouth, or if I have done something I told myself repeatedly was wrong, I will not earn myself self-loathe.

I need to shift my self-perception and stop focusing on the many flaws I have, because I probably have just as many positive qualities.

Frankly, I am growing tired of depreciating myself like this and waiting for some changes to happen. I can't move forwards if I continue berating myself for everything I say and do, because then I'll only be afraid to do anything at all. That makes me a failure in life by default.
I should stop that because I will eventually learn to become a better person, and the best thing I could do right now is to think less about who exactly I am and just be.

Might as well start liking myself as I am if I'm gonna live as Anty for the rest of my life, hahaha.

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I have faith in the fact that this is just a terrible phase I'm undergoing, though.

A very long.

And depressing.

Phase.