-WUT-

You know, most of the posts I post up here is mostly...

Sad. :/ So, let's just say this is a rant-blog, 'kay? I jsut decided to not post about happy stuffs here. I get inspired to write when I'm down. -__-

Well, firstly, the holiday had been well. In fact, it started off pretty nicely, what with a new guitar and two visits to the Pearl and all. We finished the year with sanlat in Muaither, and I guess you could say everything was perfect.

But then something happened and my face just fell like .___. .

But even before that, something had been bugging me all along.

For example, why is it that me and Dad don't hang around anymore? I find it hard to talk to him. I tried, sorta, by interviewing him with random questions (asking about his interests, of course) and telling about my time in sanlat or whatever. His responses are always very short and quite, often accompanied by a small smile. Then after a minute or so of just me saying how the event went, it was all silence again. I feel like we don't know each other. D:

I fear for him, somehow. Well, for this family's relationship, really. I get along good with Ard and Mom, but with Dad? It's very hard to talk with him. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I just couldn't find the right things to say. But I know that Dad is also a quiet person as well.

I guess, if I couldn't ask for him to be a bit more communicative, I'll have to push myself into making us closer, won't I? T___T

It's not as easy as it sounds. Most normal fathers would spend time watching sports with their children or something, or wrestle and chat and laugh. Now, I'm not asking for my dad to change.

I'm just wondering how I could make it a close father-to-daughter relationship without asking for my Dad, nice the way he already is, to change.